27th

I love you, we've been thru bites and pieces, I know it hard for us as our parents do not agree with our relationship, at times I gave up on us and leave you to sadness. I'm sorry. I also appreciate what you had done for me for the past few year, tolerating my nonsense etc now that I'm in school busying with my stressful FYP and you are out there working hard for such a good internship (yet you say it's boring), but we still make time to at least meet once a week via my late fyp and your knock off time with lead us to a few mins of meet up. but I guess it more than enough for us to give love to one another, by some short hugs and kisses, xoxo. well I hope to have more time spending with you even after graduations, going out with you and hopefully, your parents and my family is able to accept us in the near future. love, joey

Will it?

Will it be worth it for us to continue on like this?

Confused

I'm confused about what I should do.

Happy Valentine's Day to US!

Hihi babygirl! Heehee. It's that time of the year and just nice is that time of the month again when it is time for Valentine’s Day and our 7th month together.

It has been a fulfilling 7 months with you as we got to spend a lot of time together even though we have not really gone for an official date together. Walking to school, walking to the interchangeable from school, and getting to see you during breaks even when you are just too busy trying to do worksheets or the problem statement. All these little bits of time that you let me spend together with you makes me feel happy and looking forward to each day that I get to spend with you.

I love:

That you always let me hold your hand.

That i always get to fetch you to work.

That i always get to fetch you home from work.

That you always like to share a bit of your food with me even though I know you like the food.

That you always like to use the puppy eyes when you want me to do something for you.

The little kisses that you give me once in a while.

The little kisses that I get to give you a lot during the squeezed bus ride home

The hugs that I always give you.

The hugs that you always give to me (which I like alot).

The shoulder that you let me nap on.

The long kisses that we share.

The overjoyed expression that you have when I got you something that you really ou have when I got you something that you really wanted.

The sweet and beautiful smile that you always give me.

Thank you babygirl. For bringing the happiness and joy into my once empty and boring and repetitive life which has been made sweet by you. May we last long together and make each other's life joyful and beautiful together and ultimately, I want to be the one who is able to spend his life together with you, taking care of you, being there for you when you are at your best or your worst and loving you just like the day when you chose to be with me.

Your 6th month question for me.

Hihi babygirl. It's pretty long because as you know, I always have alot of things to say to you and I can never summarise it into short sentences. When you are done reading this, I want you to come up with a 24th month/1st year question for us ok?

For you, until now I have yet to fully understand how I went from just a classmate to someone that you will have feelings for. I just knew that from a certain point on, I slowly grew to like you too, then to love you and then to that I just want to be with a girl like you and ultimately, just want to be always there to care and protect you.

But all that I can say is I felt that right now, I have found the girl that I am looking for. I don’t need a super hot, super pretty, super cute girl because I know that all those are just superficial wants. I don’t need that kind of a girl. All I want is a girl that i can fully appreciate the love and care that I give her and that she will do the same for me and I believe that that girl is you. I know halfway through our journey together, I may be gone through a period of uncertainty but it was because I thinking too far ahead and I had to bring myself back to where you knew me from.  After bringing myself back from that area of uncertainty, I think you should have already felt how much I put into this relationship that I have decided to start with you, 

(The above portion was typed roughly after our 3^rd to 4^th month together. Below is what I typed today)

Again, I stepped into the uncertainty stage and probably think too far again. I know you are working hard for this relationship and trying to do whatever you can for me. I like to do things for you, making sure you are safe and happy to be in this relationship. But as you said, you feel that I am already doing enough, therefore I will listen to you and just enjoy each day where I can be with you until next time when we are certain we want to bring it to another stage. 

I know there are certain things that you do that I don’t quite like which is the same for you when I do some things that you don’t like. I really want to let you know about it, but I am always scared of how you would react. Sometimes I just don’t know how to say it out to you. 

I probably am not a very good boyfriend to you, ‘cause I tend to over think things and think too far ahead. So I hope I can change that in the next coming 6 months and become better for you, for us because I really don’t want you to cry again like yesterday and today. Let’s work hard together and overcome all the obstacles that come at us together ok babygirl? I really want us to work hard together and make it last for us.  I love you babygirl, very very very very very much <3 and I want us to let this work out great for us and last long together. OK babygirl? I love you <3 <3 <3

Baby, you know that I can't live without you
And I want to help you with everything and anything that you need help with
So please don't deny my help, because you know that I can't keep my heart away from you.

Baby I Miss You.

I want to be with you, always.

I want to go on movie dates with you,
but I can't do that because I know you are controlled by your parents.

I want to go to USS to have fun with you,
but I can't do that because I know you are controlled by your parents.

I want to spend an entire day with you,
but I can't do that because I know you are controlled by your parents.

I want to do many more things with you,
because I have many things that I had long wanted to be able to do with the girl I love. 

I want to be able to fully trust you with my heart.
I want to wait for you because I know I can love you with everything that I have.
But I'm not sure how I am going to do that,
because you have not given me anything to hold on to
except for the few small little things.

Your First Step

I need to mark this date down, for you and for us. Because for me, I really feel that it is and will be an important day of our relationship.

On this very day, I only wanted you to answer this two questions:

Me: Do you want us to end? Your honest answer.
You: No.

Me: Do you want me to always be right there for you? For you to talk to. For you to depend on. For you to pour your thoughts out.
You. Yes.



For me, for now, these two answers are more than enough for me to know what I need to do. And as I have already said to you, I hope that you will let me in. I know that you are probably unsure on how the relationship will go for us, but I am right here, always waiting for you to say things to me whether in person or by text. Because I really want to make this work for me and most importantly for you.


I hope that you remembered the things that I promised you and also the things that you promised me cos I blogged it down in the previous post. I really really meant everything that I promised you. 

2nd Month Anniversary!

Finally, it's has come to 2nd month already! It was fast because it only seem like 2 weeks ago when I planned for our 1st month & her 18th birthday and the first time that I saw her cry out of joy. HEEEEHEEEE! =x

Well, now it's time to await for the 6th month when I have something special for her :D

The ONE girl who has taken my heart
who has taken the whole of my heart,
has been enjoying herself for the past
few days, having me by her side to
fetch her home while she can enjoy a
comfortable bus ride and shoulder to
lie on so she can take a pretty nice
but short nap.

Seeing her able to fall asleep while
holding onto my arms, makes me
feel that I really really should love
this girl with the whole of my heart
and never ever let go of her to
someone else who doesn't
deserve her love.

I, pray that I will be the one who
gets to be with her for a very long
time and be by her side so that she
will never have to be hurt again.

The journey that the two of us have
shared together so far, how has it
been for you?
Much more happier than it ever was?

Heehee. Don't worry uh.
I swear to you with my life that I won't let
you go and never give up in this relationship.
This is the only one relationship that I never
feel like giving up at any point of time. I
swear i want to marry you. I will prove to my
parents that we will have happy ending (:

I know that I will love you with all of my heart
and my love for you will never change no matter what.
And I already promised you, I will not let go of the hand
that I love and will always be by your side, for you and for us.


I Love You, Joey <3

Baby's Love:
Teehee! Omg! I'm smiling like Omg! Teehee! 
Is really damn sweet! I decide to marry you!
I'm going to marry you! So you have to control of me,
don't let my hand get away and let my heart stay. (: 
now i'm walking like drunk. Omg i'm so into this text!
Go blog this! I go print screen. Teehee. <3

Never Will I Let Go The Hand That Has Given Me Its Trust

Never Will I Let The Heart That Loves Me Feel Pain.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
How I wonder what you are?
Deep in my heart live a guy,
Love him as he love me much.
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star,
I love my baby very much.

Apologies to My dear Baby

Today, marks the 29th day of us being togther and i have already made her cry. Sighs. Didn't meant to make her cry, but it was my fault that i made her cry because i failed to learn my lesson about her being getting easily paranoid while i tried to hide the birthday celebration surprise from her.

I'm sorry to my baby and she will most probably remember this day very very much although it isn't in a good way. But to her, I promise that I will learn from this mistake and change it so that she will never ever cry again in the future because of something that I did.

I'm sorry baby! Please forgive me! I love you, very very much!

My Promise to YOU

Today marks Day 19 and I promised my baby that I will never leave her and want her to be by my side forever because I love her very very much and that my life would be pretty empty without her around.



so here's a portion for my baby <3


I Love You
Very Much And
I Will Never
Leave You

and

My Life Would
Be Pretty Empty
Without You Around


Goodnight baby! and sweet dreams! I LOVE You!

Worries?

It's been like day 16 and more things start to surface that starts to worry me. Previously, it was the fact that we are hiding all these behind our parents' back and not letting them know about it and worrying about the differences in our age.

Now, it is about her suddenly remembering back about her recent past that worries me a lot. I don't really wish to see her suddenly getting all emotional over her recent past but I guess, for a girl who is pretty faithful, thinking back on her somewhat happy memories days is quite painful for her. Especially if she treated it very seriously.

I'm kind of worried about the fact that she might occasionally think back about the past once in a while and start getting emotional over it while she is not by my side. I really hope that I can be by her side whenever such memories pop back into her mind about it and help to comfort her. It is probably hard for her to quickly get over it.

Well, I believe I can just provide the support and comfort for her to slowly get over the memories of it and I will still stand by my promise to her when we started; which was that I had never set out to play around and break any girl's heart and also that I will do my utmost to make sure that she is always happy and ensure that this relationship will always be safe and sound.

I love you baby <3 and I will always do my best to keep you happy.

First Date?

Hmmmmm. I think today can be considered a first date? Well, at least it was the first time we actually walked further than just within the Woodlands area since being together. I just love to hold her hand so much <3

So we went to town so she could get her job interview for PT work. It was well, an interesting walk. At least for the first time in my life, I don't feel so lonely while walking in town. Pretty nice to have someone else walking with me and having a hand to hold on to and definitely someone whom I love to be with. So we walked around her workplace for awhile and ended up buying some sushi to snack. It was interesting how A got hungry so quick. Maybe because I ate my "lunch" too early. I shall eat more for breakfast next time when I have programming because programming really sucks up alot of energy.

It is sad though that she had to see someone who was affiliated with her ex-bf on the way home. Maybe we shouldn't have taken the train. Oh well. So much for coincidence. Hope that her mood doesn't change so much because when she is feeling moody, I too feel moody as well.

OH, and third kiss together. As usual suddenly :$ But I still love it when she kisses me suddenly. So nice~ <3 to my baby! Love you LOTS!

New Experiences, Conquered New Heights

Well, it seems like it indeed has been a long time since I came in to blog about something since I left the blog starting by itself since last year after totally forgetting about it. And looks like I have revisited it again to bring forth better news (the kind of news that I have been waiting so long for) and hopefully, to always store the future wonderful memories to come.

It's been a long time and much has changed since. From the last emotional time of my life last year July to finally being able to go back into being a student, it has been quite a bumpy ride though there were pretty much nothing in between so I wouldn't blog about the meaningless in-betweens from last year to this year. But focus more on beginning a student's life yet again.


It was quite a struggle in the beginning of the year when I was trying to get into an institution that was willing to accept me. One institution being the one that I wanted to get in the most while the other, not so much. The ONE institution didn't want to take me in while the other institution was pretty willing to give me a place into a course which my new friend whom i met at work got into. After some form of struggle to get myself into a place that I wanted, I finally got it with some luck which I, to date is still unable to understand how it happened. Maybe it was fate?

So after getting into this institution, I had my goals planned out already and it was to make sure that my grades were good enough to get me into the university pathway that was offered by the institution. It was to do the best that I can to bring forth and quicken the footsteps that I should already have taken a few years back after falling behind quite a number of my friends and has now resulted in my inability to enjoy my army reservist days with my blood&sweat brothers i made during my 2 years in army. I have no idea what future awaits me when I have to go back to serve the country again but i really hope that I will be able to rejoin my brothers to enjoy the times that we had and to recreate new memories.

But besides all that, the best news that I have and that I wanted to bring into this virtual and private world of mine, is that I have finally found someone that loves me and someone whom I can really show my love to. Now that I been typing and looking back at all the struggles I have been through, I really wonder  whether it was fated for me to meet her. I didn't do quite well during my first vocational studying days and was forced to be removed from a student's life and made to serve the country before I could reenter a student's life. I was given a choice to go to an institution that my friend was going into and i chose to struggle to get into an institution that was reluctant to accept me in the first place. I was given a test to enjoy and relive the times with my blood&sweat brothers in army but was forced, either ways by the institution or the military, to continue on with my studies and forgo-ing my chance to relive the times with my brothers. After all these tests, I have found someone special to me. Was all those things a test for me to go through?

To mark the date and time: 13 July 2011, 7.30PM

And now, I'm pretty happy to finally have someone special to me. But now comes another test which I'm totally unsure of how the outcome will be. She, having faced this obstacle before we started, just let it go and follow her heart. In my mind at that time, I too was worried about that obstacle but I too let it go and follow where my heart led me to. It was started under conditions where her parents would not find out about it and I, too have yet to inform any family members about it. The obstacle, with her being much younger than me by quite a few years was the worry that both she and I shared.

And now with her parents starting to find out about it after some accidental sighting, the obstacle has resurfaced in my mind and starting to worry me yet again. Now that it was started, it will be hard for me to let it go if it was to ever end over the obstacle. Though it has only been 11days, what I can think of now is that, if it was to come to facing that obstacle, I would try my best to make sure that I will show to them that their daughter is in good hands though I am worried about how I am going to do that.

Sighs. I feel as though I am making an important decision as important as making a marriage decision. Maybe it is because I share a different point of view compared to other people who treats bgr relationships as if it was only a game.

Maybe it is because I never set out to play around with or break a girl's heart for no good reason. But as I have already promised her, I will do my utmost to make sure that this relationship that she stepped into will last and will not leave her with it being a bad memory in her life.

Step Up 3

Step Up 3 
Watched: 22 August 2010

Expendables

Expendables 
Watched: 21 August 2010

The Last Airbender

The Last Airbender 
Watched: 7 August 2010

Salt

Salt 
Watched: 6 August 2010

Rest in Peace, my dearest furry friend

Hope that you have enjoyed the remaining of your life after leaving your previous owner's home and coming into my family. All the happy times that we shared together, hope that you have enjoyed every single bit of it.

The Sorcerer's Apprentice

The Sorcerer's Apprentice 
Watched: 22 July 2010

Inception

Inception 
Watched: 17 July 2010

Despicable Me

Despicable Me
Watched: 10 July and 11 July 2010

Knight and Day

Knight and Day
Watched: 1 June 2010

The Legend is Born – Ip Man

The Legend is Born - Ip Man
Watched: 24 June 2010

The Karate Kid

The Karate Kid
Watched: 11 June 2010

SNSD First Official Photobook in Tokyo!

Nothing much to type, but I think this will be the first of many posts to come where I will start blogging about everyday things and my latest digs since National Service is going to be over. It's one of the things that I think I should be doing since leaving the military otherwise my life will seem quite aimless everyday.

The first thing should be about SNSD's first official photobook photoshoot which took place in Tokyo. SM Entertainment is so good to release such a great product which is so thick and beautiful for the fans 'cos they know the fans will definitely dig and buy such a product. Clever (and evil =x) SM Entertainment. Coupled with their Star Card Collection Season 2, they sure are earning tons of money from SNSD fans all over the world.

Well, this is probably just a parking post for pictures to come when I get hold of my copy of the photobook which tons of Korean Sones have gotten hold of and are constantly taking photos of it and posting it all over the internet, creating tons of spoilers for fans outside of Korea.


I hope, this blog can help me to steer and guide me through this new beginning phrase of my life since I have pretty much wasted the past few years doing nothing and achieving nothing.

Peace OUT!